doing nothing (unintentionally)
Feb. 20th, 2026 09:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
luvcrumbsnot a vent, just an update on what i've been up to in february:
i haven't been as creative as i hoped to this month.
i'm at that point in life where i'm just... looking for a job. honestly, i would've taken anything at this point (not really, but i do need the money), but since i'm in final year of university, i have to find an internship. i've already lost count of how many i've applied to over the last few months
last two weeks, i couldn't create anything. not that i didn't have time or energy, no, i had just a little to spare, but i was completely frozen. i prepared so much for these interviews and group dynamics... and it still went terribly. ugh.
there are so many unwritten rules and expectations and social cues... work life is hard when you're neurodivergent, i already knew that, but i didn't expect to struggle this much to just start it.
i can just hope all of this is piling up as experience and i'll soon find something for me.
in the meantime, i'm considering opening commissions. not for writing, since i don't feel my work is something worth paying for, but for drawing. i've done it before, but payment was a headache. paypal is the standar, but it sucks! everyone knows someone who's had their entire savings taken by the platform! ko-fi is another alternative... i stil need to look into it.
i have a bunch of drawings (some finished, some not) that i've never posted. i think i'll start sharing those just to keep my accounts active while i'm busy.
i haven't been as creative as i hoped to this month.
i'm at that point in life where i'm just... looking for a job. honestly, i would've taken anything at this point (not really, but i do need the money), but since i'm in final year of university, i have to find an internship. i've already lost count of how many i've applied to over the last few months
last two weeks, i couldn't create anything. not that i didn't have time or energy, no, i had just a little to spare, but i was completely frozen. i prepared so much for these interviews and group dynamics... and it still went terribly. ugh.
there are so many unwritten rules and expectations and social cues... work life is hard when you're neurodivergent, i already knew that, but i didn't expect to struggle this much to just start it.
i can just hope all of this is piling up as experience and i'll soon find something for me.
in the meantime, i'm considering opening commissions. not for writing, since i don't feel my work is something worth paying for, but for drawing. i've done it before, but payment was a headache. paypal is the standar, but it sucks! everyone knows someone who's had their entire savings taken by the platform! ko-fi is another alternative... i stil need to look into it.
i have a bunch of drawings (some finished, some not) that i've never posted. i think i'll start sharing those just to keep my accounts active while i'm busy.
